Last time, I shared how I spent the first quarter of 2012 learning a lot of lessons. Some were a result of things that happened to me and others were lessons I learned from circumstances that resulted from my own poor decisions. After reaching a rock bottom, I reflected and learned and was esposed to the teachings of The Secret, which changed my attitude towards life. And as a result my life changed too.
After leaning all these things, I spent a lot of time envisioning my hopes and dreams as if they were true. In May, I started a job that I absolutely love, and I feel happy and blessed to go to my place of work each day. Shortly thereafter, I felt completely healthy.
The final joyful change was that I recovered emotionally and spiritually from my former poor decisions, and I entered a wonderful period of self-nurturing and loving. People always say you need to love yourself, and my mentor, Rhonda Shasteen, always taught me to be true to myself. These things are similar, and although I understood them conceptually, it never really clicked...until now. I'm in a wonderful love affair with myself, and enjoying every second of it. This may sound egotistical and selfish, but it's the healthiest place in which to be. It's a place of self-respect, healthy ego, confidence, self-esteem, and gentle assertiveness. It's a place where I can finally listen to myself and be true to myself. If I'm true to myself then I engage better with the world around me.
I've spent so much of my life trying to please other people that every action was out of a motivation to make others happy to a point where I would make myself miserable so as to avoid conflict and saying no. Now I'm listening to that my inner voice and being true to myself and guess what! The reactions, interactions, and engagements I have with others are better and more honest too.
Maybe it's because I'm getting into my mid-thirties and this is something that happens at this age. At least, that's I hear. Whatever it is, it makes me feel happier than I've felt in my life.
Each quarter I go through the exercise of writing down my purpose tournament, from the book, The On-Purpose Person. This exercise gets you to define your top wants in eight major areas of life, like relational, spiritual, financial, etc. In June, I looked at my March purpose tournament only to discover I had absolutely everything I wished for, just like The Secret says. I can't wait to check it out again in September!
Normally, I've been fearful to share my joy with people for fear of it being jinxed. That's putting a wish out there. I'm choosing to face those fears in hopes that my joy will catch on for you too. The combination of a major shift in attitude plus coming into my own brought about the richest period of my life experience, and that's why this is turning out to be a banner year! Be joyful and happy now because you can!