Do you have feelings of joy and bliss, impatience and crankiness, stress and peace? I know I do. Life feels easy and good when I'm enjoying blissful and joyful feelings and emotions, but I feel taxed and stressed when my emotions are negative or conflicted. I notice that I become indecisive about what decisions to make.
I've spent many years forcing myself to make decisions that my head agreed with versus my heart. It's hard to make decisions guided by your heart when you can't put your finger on what it is exactly that you are feeling. When I can't articulate what I'm thinking and feeling, I just end up feeling cranky and frustrated instead.
Your feelings are your best guide to the right decisions for you. As I become more tuned into my true self and self-love, I find myself not knowing what it is that I want to do because I'm so habituated to making a decision to please other people or a decision to avoid conflict.
I'm ecstatic to be feeling the indecision, because it is a clear sign that I'm noticing the true feelings within myself. I'm tapping into my guide, my true self, my inner voice, and my intuition (or whatever term works for you). Right now, my intuition appears in the form of indecisiveness and personal conflict, but as I get to know my true self more and more, then becoming familiar with exactly what I'm thinking and feeling should become second nature.
Now as I enter a state of indecision and internal conflict, I must choose to separate from people and situations for a little bit in order to take the time I need to get a hold of what my true feelings and emotions are. At first, time alone meant a couple of days writing in my journal and meditating in my bedroom. Now I can either spend abundant amounts of time with myself exploring my thoughts and emotions, or I can step away for a few minutes and understand what it is that I really want. Then I just have to muster up the courage to follow through with my desire and demonstrate self-love.
This is self-love in action. It is using my feelings to guide me to a better feeling place. Every time I discover and get clear about what I want and make the decision to follow through with it, I feel strengthened and empowered because I know it is the good choice. It encourages me to continue on this journey that I know is right.
I hope you will take the time to engage in any activity that helps you to tap into your true self because you can!