A while back I wrote a post called "You Can Have It All." It was the first time I believed that life could be joyous and bountiful and not riddled with one drama after the other. I believed it but didn’t see it manifest for long periods of time in my life. After listening to The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, I paid special attention to the chapter that talks about how we grow accustomed to attaching to our “pain body.” In other words we develop patterns in life and expect certain things to happen. I secretly believed that I always had to be dealing with one major drama and that life didn’t flow smoothly for extended periods for anyone or me.
Then I had an epiphany of awareness as many pieces of the puzzle came together for me. I realized that pains entered my life, as in times when I have been sick, lost a job or a relationship, all happened when everything was going smoothly. I remember having a drama occur in the fall, and the first thing I told my brother was, “It was like it knew I was happy.” Now I see that I am so used to associating with pain or drama in my life that I don’t know how to feel and act without one, so my subconscious responds and makes me sick or messes up some other part of my life to maintain drama in my life. It’s a form of self-abuse.
Now that I am able to be a witness of myself and tune into my intuition, I am finally learning to engage in the ongoing process of disassociating myself from a “pain body” and drama in my life. I can see from my past the many times I’ve chosen bad men to keep drama in my life. I’ve had years of job drama during the most recent recession, and I finally attracted a job to my life that I love, where I feel happy and content.
My health has been going well, and I’ve even learned separate from drama instigating doctors that choose to instill fear in you as a medicine. Now, that I know all things are in the right flow, and I’m more centered with self, my true self doesn’t really know how to react or respond because it has never felt separation from the outside, drama and the “pain body” before. Now. I’m experiencing it for the first time, and it’s like my subconscious is getting nauseous to keep me in a negative life pattern because it is all it knows.
I feel grateful to be able to recognize it, so I can embrace my life in all of its peace and beauty and bask in the wonderfulness of it. I can feel the growing essence of freedom entering my life. Life can be peaceful. You and I can have it all and not be punished for it either outwardly or inwardly.
Release attachment to your pain and free yourself because you can!